School yard attitude . . . .
For five years, many years ago, the school yard played a big part in 'being happy' at school. For Me it was very stressful, would I be on my own, would I be left out, did I even fit in, etc. Even now thinking about school fills be with dread. I didn't hate school, but I certainly didn't enjoy it.
For the following however many years fitting in didn't matter. I mixed with like minded people at college and work, fitting in just wasn't a problem.
Then I had my Daughter and it was all change again. Fitting in was important, you want your child to fit in, be popular, have friends, etc.
Back to today.
Standing in the school yard waiting for my Son to come out of class I have that same feeling about fitting in. Sometimes I look around and see all the same things. The groups, the gossipers, the loners, the cool ones, the ones that don't care about fitting in. Where do I stand. . . I hate that feeling.
As much as children at secondary school can be cruel, so can adults. Some revel in the back stabbing of the school yard.
Please release me from the school yard. . .
Let me stand on my own, no I'm not being funny or awkward, I just don't want to play at 'school yards' anymore. I'm a grown up and shouldn't feel dread at the thought of picking up my little boy.
Sorry about the rant.
Is it just Me?
Does the school yard fill lots of parents with a feeling of dread?
Maybe it is just Me?